Honestly

I can’t remember the last time I was actually “okay”. Pretty sad huh?

I’m at this point where I don’t know what others see in me. I don’t understand why anyone is my friend, why they speak to me, why they laugh at my jokes…anything. I don’t feel good enough for anyone. I think everyone is prettier, smarter, funnier than I am. I just don’t know who I am anymore, and who would ever wanna love someone so broken like me.

I’m fucking done.

I never thought, out of all the people in my life YOU would do this to me. YOU were the only one that got me out of my depression. YOU were the only thing that made me happy in any way. And now, you go and break me. I’ve been broken to many times. I’m sick and tired of feeling this way. Of feeling like I’m not good enough for anyone, like I don’t matter. Like nothing in this life will ever bring me happiness. I thought I finally found someone that I could rely on, but I guess not. I GAVE YOU ALL OF ME AND THIS IS HOW YOU REPAY ME!!!! I guess I’m just too broken for anyone to love. So I’m done, with feelings…everything. I’m done with getting close to anyone because all they do is leave. And I don’t think I can take another person I love leaving my life. It’s just too painful.

Just when I think I’m doing fine…

I see your face and break down again.

I sucks feeling unwanted

Especially when the person you want to want you the most doesn’t want you at all.

(Source: kaulitzsevani)